I would like to introduce you to a writer with a totally different style and message from what most Christians read today. Gerhard Tersteegen was pietist mystic who lived from 1697 to 1769. Though he was a simple weaver by profession he had a widespread and profound ministry, both by his travels and by his writings. Unless you read German it is very difficult to access his works. There is only one major work on Tersteegen in English that I know of. It contained an account of his life and selections from his writings. It was published in 1832 and the author is Samuel Jackson
God is a meek and friendly Being ; He is love ; and
he that abideth in love, abideth in God, and God in him.
(1 John, iv. 16.) Be therefore also meek, friendly, and
kind in thy whole conduct and deportment. Let the
wrathful and opposite powers of thy nature, be softened by
the Spirit of the love of Jesus, the obduracy of thy temper
be calmed, and thy obstinate self-will be bent and rendered
pliable ; and as often as anything of an opposite nature
springs up in thee, immerse thyself immediately into the
the sweet element of meekness and love. God is a placid Being, and dwells in a serene eternity ; therefore thy mind must become like a clear and silent
streamlet, in which the glory of God can reflect and pourtray
itself. Hence thou must avoid all disturbance, confusion, and irritation, inwardly and outwardly. There is nothing in the world deserves being troubled about ; even
thy past faults must only humble, but not disturb thee.
" God is in his holy temple, (Hab.iii. 20.) let all that is
within thee keep silence before him !; silent with thy lips,
silent with thy desires and thoughts, silent as it respects
thine own activity. how profitable and precious is a
meek and quiet spirit in the sight of God ! (1 Pet. iii. 4.)
God is a happy, contented, and delightful being : seek
therefore to acquire an ever joyful and peaceful spirit ;
avoid all anxious cares, vexation, murmuring, and melan
choly, which obscure the mind, and make thee unfit for
converse with God : turn thyself meekly away from it,
when thou art conscious of anything of the kind in thee.
Let thy heart be estranged from, and closed against all the
world and every creature, but entirely familiar with, and
open to God. Keep a very strict eye upon thyself, thine
evil lusts, self-love, and self-will : but towards God, be
truly free, childlike, affectionate, and confidential. Re
gard him as the friend of thy heart, and think nothing but
what is purely good of him. Though everything without,
fall into confusion, and though thy body be in pain and
suffering, and thy soul in barrenness and distress, yet let
thy spirit be unmoved by it all, placid and serene, elevated
above the accidents of all things, and delighted in and
with its God inwardly, and with his good pleasure out
wardly. If thou endeavour to exercise thyself in this manner, thy
mind will gradually become more conformed unto God,
and also more and more capable of substantially finding
this all-sufficient and most amiable Good, and of beholding his beautifying countenance.